Today is a day that has a lot of personal meaning to me and my little family. It is Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Day.
I’ve shared a tiny bit about why I started my other blog, So You Think You’re Crafty, in the about page over there and in interviews and conversations I’ve had. But I’ve never shared what lead to that discussion I had with my sister and BIL about blog stalking and starting my own.
At the time Abbi was just over a year old and sleeping all but 6 hours a day (she was a FANTASTIC napper) and I had just found out we were expecting our 2nd baby. We were so excited and I loved having all that extra time while she slept! I could read and sew and cook and craft and keep my house clean and get ready for the new little one.
Then my world came crashing down. I miscarried that baby. We were heart broken. All of the sudden, that wonderful free time became crushing to me. I no longer had the motivation to do anything but dwell. Dwell on the fact that little one we wanted so much wasn’t coming. All I could bring myself to do was blog stalk when I was alone and pretend everything was ok when people were around.
A month or so later I visited my sister and her family for a week and we started talking about all the blogs that I had discovered. That conversation and brain storming session about what SYTYC could be like was a turning point for me. All the sudden I had a plan and the motivation to actually DO something to work my way out of my depression. I got right to work getting So You Think You’re Crafty up and going.
We hadn’t given up on adding to our family, but with the 3rd miscarriage came a diagnosis of “unexplained recurrent pregnancy loss.” We realized that maybe God had another plan for blessing us with a sibling for Abbi so we started the adoption process and paperwork. For the past 3+ years, and through two more miscarriages, we’ve been waiting.
But good news! At this very moment my husband and I are waiting for the call to head out to Las Vegas, Nevada. And when we come home it will be with a little sister for Abigail.